World Mental Health Awareness Day
Posted on October 10 2019
If you have been following for a while, you know I haven’t been shy about sharing my struggles with depression and anxiety. I was diagnosed with PPD after my second baby (2 years ago) but truth be told, I have struggled my entire life with anxiety and depression and it wasn’t until much later in my life that I was able to identify and seek help. I self medicated to numb the pain for many years, something I’m not proud of.
Life, motherhood, marriage, a business, self care, social life, balancing it all, it’s hard. I walked (crawled) through what felt like an eternally dark season of my life over the last two years. My marriage was literally falling apart, I was adjusting to caring for a newborn and a toddler, I was transitioning my business to a brick and mortar, and I was wading through the depths of postpartum depression and anxiety alone (to top it off, in the middle of flu season). I tried so so hard to deal with it on my own. I didn’t want to burden anyone else, mostly because the one person I reached out to for help mocked me and the struggles I was having. It was lonely. It was scary. I never thought I’d see the sunshine again. I felt so alone even though I had some of the best support in my Mama, siblings and best friend, virtual support just doesn’t quite hit like that physically present support does. I can honestly say that without those people reaching out to ME, I wouldn’t have made it through that season of life. I was ashamed. Embarrassed. I was afraid of what people would think or say. I was going to just keep dealing on my own but I’m so grateful for those few people in my corner looking out for me.
I say all that to say, I survived.
To say that my life today is better. I still have bad days. But I’m healthier and have a mental clarity like I’ve never had before. I am medicated. I see a therapist. I am mentally and physically strong. There were many days when I just didn’t know how I’d get through it but WITH HELP, I did + with help, you can too. Let me be your help. You don’t have to walk this alone. We can fight it together because you are worth it. We are all worth it. 🖤 #mentalhealthday #breakthestigma
Life, motherhood, marriage, a business, self care, social life, balancing it all, it’s hard. I walked (crawled) through what felt like an eternally dark season of my life over the last two years. My marriage was literally falling apart, I was adjusting to caring for a newborn and a toddler, I was transitioning my business to a brick and mortar, and I was wading through the depths of postpartum depression and anxiety alone (to top it off, in the middle of flu season). I tried so so hard to deal with it on my own. I didn’t want to burden anyone else, mostly because the one person I reached out to for help mocked me and the struggles I was having. It was lonely. It was scary. I never thought I’d see the sunshine again. I felt so alone even though I had some of the best support in my Mama, siblings and best friend, virtual support just doesn’t quite hit like that physically present support does. I can honestly say that without those people reaching out to ME, I wouldn’t have made it through that season of life. I was ashamed. Embarrassed. I was afraid of what people would think or say. I was going to just keep dealing on my own but I’m so grateful for those few people in my corner looking out for me.
I say all that to say, I survived.
To say that my life today is better. I still have bad days. But I’m healthier and have a mental clarity like I’ve never had before. I am medicated. I see a therapist. I am mentally and physically strong. There were many days when I just didn’t know how I’d get through it but WITH HELP, I did + with help, you can too. Let me be your help. You don’t have to walk this alone. We can fight it together because you are worth it. We are all worth it. 🖤 #mentalhealthday #breakthestigma
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